hey, it's my another sucks day story. it's still about the performance. allright actually it's a drama so just call it drama. not 'the performance' nor 'present of my class' because that's too long. ok i just wanna tell how was it going today. well it ain't going good. it's going WORST. you know? i was always be a trash on this thingy. drama. it ain't an opera or something that invited a majesty queen nor king. just some of parents, formers, and teachers. but i don't know why i wanna act too. even i knew that i'll just messed it up. but what's wrong if i just wanna try? people won't let me i guess. actually my bored are begin when it's being fickle. for the first time they said that all of the class member will appear. but the next time they said it's all changed. not at all. then they said everyone who wanna be a property part, said yes. buut when i wanna said yes, someone of them asked me with unfriendly.
me: hey, so what should i do? should i...
girl: well, if you're not serious like this, you better don't working at all
me: ...
girl: so, you'll join or not?
me: i'm just... but... i'll be so useless right?
girl: if you won't just say
me: ok then i won't
girl: is it ok?
me: yes
"Saying " It's ok " but secretly knowing its killing you inside"
i knew it's really hard for me to say 'it's ok' but i swear its HURT!!!! ACTUALLY I WANT! BUT THEY WON'T HEAR ME THEY WON'T LET ME! i knew it. gah. i can see it from they eyes. it's hard to be treated like this. i was mistreated. they don't understand me. underestimated. they're happy with my own suffer. thanks guys. thanks for making me hate of myself. making me hate of why were i born.
THANKS
