I'm feelin bad

based on my previous posting, i was felt bad. yes i am. i'm in love with someone again. i'm open these oversensitive heart. i was break it's lock. i knew it's such a big deal. but i don't know what should i do. i was attracted with his look. with his funny. just like the previous fukin boy. i do wanna cry. i do suffer again. God i don't wanna do this anymore. but i can't keep it. my heart like wanna break itself don't care how hurt it will. i knew it's my mistake. i knew he wouldn't read this. but i just wanna every people who red it, don't try to break your own heart. it's heart. i was did it a thousand times but i can't handle it. i knew i can't stop opened his profil. i seems like i was stuck with his face. i need his question. i will do anything to impress him. but he seems like don't need me anymore. am i hoping too much? or is it because i was gave some other guy a hopeless for reach my love? isn't it? i wont be this jerk anymore. i wanna be an happy girl. but it hard. boy was my lifepart. was. and the previous boys are my toys. was. i don't wanna do this anymore. i don't wanna make a foe. love is a trust. i wont break it anymore. i wanna be a good girl who can treat her boy. i wanna be faithfully. i don't wanna beg an affected. i want that boy is beg me for my love. i want him. a different one. but i won't make him being a sux boy. Gosh if he's made for me, please tell me. if not, please make it. God I beg you the best. may you bless me and gimme the best one. :')