what should i do?

hey it's me again. i was posting 2 times today, wasn't me? it's because today i'm feelin bad. just so you know, it's my bad day story blog. and my normal day is on the another blog. and with indonesian language so it's hard to understand. this post i'm gonna tell you about my feeling this night. as ussually, i felt bad. it's because one of my friend said something i hate. let's call her Y. as what you've knew, i ever envied my friends right? and about the class performance plan? yeah it's connected. about that both. aaaand, the queen bee. it's happened recently. this evening, i sent Y a chat. i'm just asking her something. i knew it's annoying. i hate this. i'm just upset because why-are-they-so-meanie-to-me. that's all. the chat was 'hey, are you playing that game?' 'is there a meet and share today?' 'are you happy today?' 'are you laughing a lot today?' but it's actually mean 'are you playing game? i hate you because you're not waiting for me!' 'i knew there's a meet and share today. but YOU DIDN'T TOLD ME EITHER!' 'are you happy today? because i was so cruel and sad today!' 'are you laughing a lot today? because I'M CRYING A LOT INSIDE!' i was hurted because of them. it's hurt but they wouldn't feel it. i was backstabbed. that traitor. they're not my bestfriend because they didn't notice me. even sometime yes. and the thing that made me cruel this time is i sent a chat to her 'hey, so you won't reply huh? :)' then she sent me a PM.

'oh hi. sorry i wasn't noticed it's you. and umm yeah tommorow we will had a training. but queen bee-she said the real name- shoulda came tommorow because she's responsible of our training'

is my question asking about that? am i asking about that queen bee? did i? am i? i don't even ask her about that queen bee! doesn't she knew that is annoying me. that's hesitating. i was like 'what do you want? show me that you and her are the important girl that would performing on the stage? and me, just a ...' nevermind. the another thing is, peoples always blame me. but i can't scream to their faces and said 'STOP BLAME ME!' that's too hard for me. i knew about Y's dreamingboy. and i knew the truth.

2 days ago, she told me that 'the boy' made a space with her because another boy are waiting for her so 'the boy' is just surrender. but THAT'S DEFINITELY WRONG! she just too confidence. then i told her 'believe me, stop do that!' i said that because i can't let her being that slut again. i won't. but you know what? the wise one blame me. but before, she said that she wanna told Y about it. then i was blamed just because of that words? is it bad to make your friend better? she's suffer! 'the boy' is definitely love the other girl. she just won't realize. now they all were blame me. isn't that suck? i can crying all night. girls, please realize when he doesn't like you again. don't be too confidence. you shoulda know how the difference of the boy that still love you or not. i knew the truth but she won't hear me. then just wait the time that she'll crying. it's just about time trick. then i'm gonna waiting for the day. ah guys, i was so tired of being here. thanks for reading :)