my worst mood

i was bad mood. i was bad tempered. JUST NOW! you know? every year there's a graduation and every class are present their class. for the first, my class wanna present something that's very exciting. we were happy. we all are ready. but YOU KNOW WHAT? it was changed. i was like 'its ok, its ok'. then i have not an act. what? then suddenly they wanna make up. wanna make something new. i was like 'what the hell?' i think it's gonna be better. but it's be more wth. i don't like it. and now, you know what? thats a new present. and i hate this! you know why? because it's different! the first plan is everyone in class are participation. and the second plan are 'NOT AT ALL' just an exist girl in my class. and i think i don't. today i got a problem with a boy i adore. it's such a big deal. but suddenly someone text me 'tommorow you don't force to come. but some people that act should come. there's-blablabla- and everyone who don't get it just please do something with the property' and you know? I DON'T GOT ANY ACT. so i must do something with a boxes or plastic bags. what? and it's hurt me more when i knew that someone who called them my bestfriend got the act. and i don't. how could they? i was like... i wanna cry. they're acting on the stage and i just sitting on the chair, watch them. watching all of my besfriend are acting like... hmm. why is it? the thing they don't know is... when i'm just doing with property, I WILL NOT DOING ANYTHING? there's so many people with a creative hand and i DON'T. why are they? are they just wanna shoo me out? get the fuck off of there? then i won't go to school tommorow. i don't. i wanna swimming tommorow. then i could crying as much as i want. they don't know how i feel it. they never known it. but i won't ask for an act. because i knew enough that they're not believe me. i didn't notice i'm crying right now. i remember friday i'll go with my classes. the day i've been waiting for. but my day are broken right now. RIGHT NOW. and idk should i go with that fukin girls? or don't. i really hurt. because i was waiting for that both day. the graduation and go with class. but this fuk thing are happened to me. gosh please help me outta here. it's being harder everyday. i jus't can't help it. and i can't be this alone forever. i hope it's gonna be better.